This morning I was reading my Bible. In the midst of my meditation I realized I kept thinking about how tired I am. I decided to pray about it and God directed me to this Word:
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
– 1 Peter 5:7
It’s been one of those weeks where I feel very drained about life in general. Adulthood is a lot of work. We are constantly giving our all and trying to remain calm and stress free at the same time. Is that even realistic?
If it’s not work, it’s varsity. If not varsity it’s home drama, or relationship issues, or my finances, or my future, or my weight. There’s constantly something that’s stressing me out. Is is normal to live such a stress filled life? When do I get to sit back and just EXHALE?
Years ago when I went to therapy, my therapist would always ask me, when was the last time a day passed without me crying. That question alone would make me cry haha! You know we go through so much on the daily and we don’t even realize that sometimes our bodies can’t take it anymore and they shut down. I think for me that’s my breaking point. When I just fail to control my life and let everything spiral out of control.
God was reminding me this morning that I’m actually not in control. He is. I’m constantly trying to do His job and obviously I’m bound to fail because I’m not God. Why am i constantly trying to fight battles when I can just leave them to God to handle? Do what you can, but the moment you feel like you can’t handle it anymore, just leave it to God and keep it moving.
We are so young to be stressing our lives away like this. There’s so much joy in the world that we’re missing out on. Lets seek that joy rather.
This morning I’ve been mediating on God’s purpose for my life. Yep, I’ve reached that stressful age of 25 and I’m panicking on whether I’m even living a purposeful life. I remember when I thought I’d have everything figured out at this age, happy and living the life of my dreams. Lets all laugh together now haha.
Anyways, my future has been my focus lately, and everything I’m doing is for my future and my future kids. One of my biggest worries, is if I’m living a life that pleases me and pleases God. I have neglected myself and have just been getting by. I feel as if I have been wasting so much time doing meaningless things that have not benefited me in any way.
I’ve been reading T.D. Jakes’ book titled Destiny – Step into your purpose and it’s been changing my perspective on life so much. One thing I’m trying to change is time wasting. I’m avoiding it at all costs because time is precious and once it’s gone, you can’t get it back. What are you doing with your time? Are you in the right profession? Studying what makes you happy? Making use of the gifts and talents God has blessed you with? Doing what you love? Loving someone who loves you back wholeheartedly? Are you putting the time you have on this earth to good use?
Lately, for some reason something within me just snapped and I’ve been getting glimpses of my future self. I love what I’m seeing, but I just wish I knew which steps I should be taking to get there. I don’t want to make the wrong choices because I feel like there’s no time for those right now. It’s tricky. I think this requires a lot of prayer, meditation on God’s Word and reading. I feel like this year is THE year to discover who we really are and make the most of it.
“The sooner you develop a mind-set for Destiny, the more days you will have to devote your gifts to the world. The more efficiently you use time to get to know yourself, the greater your opportunity to make the most of the days you are given on earth. Appreciate the value of time by focusing on what’s in front of you, not by lamenting what’s behind you.”
Last week Monday I started a “7 days of gratitude” challenge, where I’ve been journalling what I’m most grateful for and counting my blessings.
Once in a while it’s important to sit back and reflect on how blessed you actually are. When life is throwing us lemons, we tend to forget about how fortunate we actually are, because we spend so much time focusing on our problems.
Why is it important?
Keeping a gratitude journal has been linked to lower stress levels, better sleep, brain clarity, reduction in physical pain and an overall better sense of well-being and spirituality. God awards the grateful.
“Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”
During this challenge God revealed something so profound to me that I’ve been slacking on. I’ve noticed that I focus too much on my downfalls. It’s so bad that all the negative things in my life consume me until I physically feel it. I actually make myself sick with stress and anxiety (most times it’s not that hectic).
We allow life’s troubles to make us feel inadequate. Failures. God has blessed us with so many things which we overlook. What are you doing with what God has blessed you with? Why aren’t you positive that you can conquer a situation, when you’ve conquered so many in the past? Remember that one thing that you thought would destroy you, but you managed to beat it?
Before complaining, try to look at something with gratitude. You’re stronger than you know!
Rubybox Beauty recently sent me the New Dove Even tone antiperspirant and I’ve been using it for about 3 weeks now. I have many insecurities, one of them being my uneven skin tone.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my melanin-ated skin, but I hate that other parts of my skin are super dark. I’m constantly trying to cover up all the darker areas. So this product was very necessary. So far, I’m impressed. It’s a great product. It’s very moisturizing and smells great.
However, I haven’t seen a difference in my skin tone as yet. It’s probably because I don’t use it consistently. My underarms are definitely smoother and I don’t sweat as often. Which is a huge thumb up for me.
Hi everyone. I’ve been planning to start this blog for a long time now. I feel like I have so much to say and so many opinions to make. So why not share them with the world? I’ll be discussing things that I’m interested in or anything that comes to my head really. Journaling accompanied with photography, have always been two hobbies of mine that have defined me and expressed who I am, in cases where I failed to verbally express myself.
I’m looking forward to this new journey and I hope it’s fruitful.